the single pixie and cravings ..

When I first came into the lifestyle I had been separated from a cheating husband. After 2 yrs alone I randomly crossed paths with a Female Dominant and it was magic. Besides some brief encounters Id not had a girlfriend before, and not a real time Dominant who just want into kinky sex, but the whole lifestyle. She was married and I was able to fully experience the poly lifestyle as well. I thought life was grand, how much better could it be! It couldnt :( and unfortunately while there was about 4 yrs of "perfect bliss" there was about 2 yrs of spiral downhill tailspins. It was one of those situations where I knew I needed to leave, but was faithful to my collar and my position .. Lucky for me ( ? ) she had a melt down one day and threw me out and that was the end of that ...

I then, for a combined but not consecutive 3 years, spent time with a dear friend whose collar I wore, but it was strictly a 'service submissive" status -

and now its been like 5 yrs and ive not had sex ... or even physical contact ( other than scenes, usually at public events ) with anyone.

Lately I've noticed a real craving, a longing, a desire .. omg I want thrown up against the wall and ravished!! Im not really generally one to have "fantasies" as I see them leading to expectations. However, walking through the mall the other day, I was feeling pretty, sexy ... and this beautiful Woman walked passed me and next thing I know my head has us in the bathroom, Her pushing the stall open and just taking me right there .. I was like .. DAMN pixie you do need to get some lol

I've been seeing all these wonderful relationships, of many types, spewed across twitter at me for weeks and I realize, I miss that ( and honest? more than the sex really )

I've never been one to "pursue" I've never dated anyone, I always just kinda ended up in relationships .. and to be honest, I am really not sure how to go about this whole thing ...

but will see what happens .. I'll keep you updated :)