aaaah the dork in me .. giggles

soooo I found out that Joan Jett was coming to perform at the Arizona Pride Festival and I was all excited .. except 1 problem, it was a Sunday night, I didnt have anyone to ask to go with me, and we all know I am not quite ready to venture out and do something on my OWN! *gasps*

I decided, the week before the show, to throw out a post in my favorite online lifestyle community,Fetlife and ask if anyone happened to be going (that I knew! lol) in hopes I would get to go.

See, I love Joan Jett, and when I was a teenager, she was coming to our city, on my BIRTHDAY! How perfect was that!!?? We got tickets and were all set! Then .. low and behold, it turned out that the auditorium had booked Joan Jett, but also the "All City High School Music Festival" - WTF - I played the violin and that meant I was expected to be there .. I was like no way, I didnt care if I passed freaking orchestra class, but I was going to see Joan Jett - we have priorities in life - I might never get to see her, let alone on my birthday, again .. but there was always a way to make up a stupid orchestra class credit *smiles*

and what happened with that? Well the high school music festival won out on the space, I dont know if she canceled or we canceled her, but *sighs* she wasnt there for my birthday .. its been a disappointment to me for years *sniff sniff* (no im not kiddng, I told you I have quirks LOL)
I didnt go to the music festival either - I love birthdays, and there are barely a handful in 40 yrs that i can say were not celebrated "away from work/school" - I dont care if I cant 'do" anything and I just have to sit home alone, thats all right by me - its celebration of me time no matter how I spend it!

This year my 40th was awesome ....completely sidetracking to my birthday and spending it the way I want lol .. I didnt have a job, I just came back from SWLC and I was terribly heartbroken that my 40th birthday was going to be spent in the snow and cold .. it was my 40th!!! but I simply couldnt justify airfare/hotel/meals what not, for even a couple days to go anywhere -

and then Ms Universe gave me a special "Gift" .. I was able to come spend not only a couple days, but a whole week with a couple who have become very dear to me, who threw me a fabulous birthday party (Ms Universe had a hand in arranging that too!) and yeah .. that was great heheh I also got invited to come back and live with them until I get settled in Arizona!!

Anywaaaays back to why I am a dork! LOL - Only 1 person responded to me that they would go see Joan Jett with me at the Pride Festival and so woohoo I was going to get to go see Joan Jett!!! and only 2 months past my birthday LOL

Joan Jett was awesome and rocked!! Now .. while we were there, circumstance had it that my special "Gift" was going to be able to come to the concert too! YAY how much better can it get!

OH, it can just wait .. giggles - if any of this has made sense and you are still following, the couple I live with was the "Gift" Ms Universe gave me .. so we had separate cars, but were going to the same house ... no problem, I had keys (she had to go pick up the other 1/2 of them, and i would get home 1st)

I stop at taco bell on the way, and get home .. put the top up on Ms Miata, carefully walk to the door looking for any bugs (lol) .. walk in the house, get a pepsi from the fridge, go to the living room and begin to eat ...

and realize .. damn ive not peed in like 12 hours .. so down the hall i walked, dropping off my bags and new toys (omg next post for that!) in my bedroom , and off to the bathroom ...

as i am sitting there peeing .. i suddenly stopped breathing ..WTF just I just walk through part of a dark house .. and of course i heard a noise (it was the house phone beeping lol) but that was enough to make me start THINKING about that I was home alone, in the big dark house ..omg .. i sat in the lit bathroom for about 10 minutes .. and finally made my way (3 steps across) to my bedroom - i sat on the bed (with the lights on!!!) for another 25-20 minutes before I convinced myself I was being silly - at least long enough to step off the bed and put my jammies on ... and back on the bed I went!!

I didnt move from the bed again until they came home .. i didnt have a panic attack, but .. i so could have lol .. we just gotta love the dork in me *giggles*