ovaries, cervixes, UTERUSES OH MY!

I originally told myself I would start blogging about this big event as soon as I got home, on the day I found out. Yet typical of me, that was 2 weeks ago lol.

So for longer than I even initially told my physician, Ive been having more troublesome periods. I say "more troublesome" because mine have always caused major issues for me. Being 39 I started to think I was peri-menapausal and decided to talk to my Dr. to see what options might be available. She does the normal blood draw and then sends me for a vaginal ultrasound.

First, let me say its very hard, when you like pretty girls, to keep a straight face when you have one inserting and twisting around a probe in your vagina! *giggles* While normally these do not hurt, mine was uncomfortable and when I heard mentions of "measure there to here" I KNEW there was something more going on than menopause.

The following week I get a call from the nurse who says my bloodwork was normal and no menopause. She asked if I had the ultrasound, I said yes, she said Dr's back in office the next week and she would review, then they will call and go from there.OK

I do get a call the next week, I was half awake and several moments into the conversation when I realized I was talking to my Dr, not the nurse. If the DR was calling it could not be good and I really snapped to attention.

Sure enough, there is a large mass in my uterus. I got the standard "at your age its probably nothing and not cancer, but of course we cant promise that without testing". She referred me to a specialist to have a peek.

They were able to see my pretty quickly and the Dr I met with is the absolute best. The office has a couch and we sat side by side and discussed my issues. She really listened, talked to me and made me very comfortable. We discussed different options, and then while waiting for my ultrasound results to come to her, she did a quick exam. She barely stuck 2 fingers in me and went "oh yeah I can feel that right there" - it was like a 30 second exam and done.

She said, "I would recommend a hysterectomy. To test for cancer is very painful, and since youve already had a tubal, the 'simplest' route would be to do the hysterectomy". Now I am all for less pain, and NO MORE PERIODS! Then she mentioned the 4-6 week recovery, YAY missing work too...WAIT...4-6 weeks of .. PAIN????? well, OK.

The most traumatic part of all this so far for me has been that I was planning on relocating this Sept/Oct. With a Sept 1 surgery date, there will be no packing, flying for job and house hunting...sighs ... no moving. Emotionally this move is very critical for me and I am very torn on whether I can even survive another winter of cold and snow. I am really that done.

The next "traumatic"part is missing Folsom Street Fair - I know most have said to me, "its not that big a deal" but I guess no one really understands the emotional energy and lift I get from Fair weekend. It makes a pixie thrive!! If I can find me a lovely to do everything for me, literally, i wont be able to drive, carry anything and minimal walking - then I maybe able to fly and come get my energy fix ( hint hint subbies! )

I have decided "there is reason" for the timing, I have the insurance and ability to deal with this, I am going to do so. Not moving however makes me feel like yet another failure. There is a part of me that for now says, if there is cancer, I will not treat it. I am really just that done with this "life", but will see.

HNT - pixie and her soapy bubbles

i am a bit of an exhibitionist
and made a promise to a special twitter
friend i would take a pic for her while i was
enjoying the soapy bubbles!

It turned out rather nicely for HNT this week too :)

This is a story i wrote many a year ago, i honest didnt
proof read it, i just saw it had shower in the title LOL

As I walked through the front door I called out, Sir but didn’t get a response.
Stepping through the house, I wandered upstairs, and upon entering the
bedroom, I could hear the shower running – aha – that is where he is!

I suddenly became aroused and my head began to spin with
naughty thoughts. Quickly I undressed, hoping he would not
finish before I got in there. Opening the bathroom door
, I peeked around the corner to see if you were looking ..

You were not at that moment, but I had barely stepped in when our
eyes made contact .. a smile came across both our faces.

Without missing a beat I fell to my hands and knees and
began crawling to the shower door, I was already so excited
I was beginning to feel the moisture forming between my thighs.
As I reached You, I kneel up, placing my hands to the door
not wanting You to open it … yet.

The glass is has begun steaming and I press my breast to door
after swiping little spots clear with my fingertips.

Then pressing my lips .. little kisses … letting my tongue slide
and tease at Your cock on the other side. I begin
sliding my body up along the door .. pressing myself tight ..
letting You take in the view through the steaming wetness of the door …

Your hands are wandering .. pressing along the glass, tracing my silouhette ..
I reach up and play with my nipples, teasing because I know You
want to touch and can not … my arousal is overwhelming ..
and I begin to make love to You through the door.

You immediately follow my lead and the energy becomes so intense,
I just wanted to fuck You right through the glass …
Overwhelmed in the excitement building between us my hand reaches
down .. grasping, stroking, playing with my swelling treasure, feeling it ache
with desire and passion , I can almost barely stand it anymore ….

I am soooo close …. and I hear Your voice .. nooo .. stop … pixie … not yet ……
I suck a breath in, pressing all my weight into the door, trying to listen ..
I can see You’ve placed Your hands to push to door open
and I force my quivering self to step back and You pull me
into the shower with You .. for a moment just pressing our bodies together,
embraced in a kiss, the warmth of the water beating down between
us I again feel the arousal tugging deep within me.

Hands wandering over our bodies, I can feel Your cock hard and pressing
against me … oh god how I wanted You so bad right now …
my hands grasp into Your ass and pull You hard closer to
me as I grind my pussy into You … yes omg I need You now ..

You whisper what a good girl I am as You are spinning me around,
guiding my hands to the shaving bench, bending me over …
and as if we never had to stop and open the door,
You took me …all the passion and energy that had been
building through the glass suddenly made contact and connected,
I cried out a sigh of pleasure and ecstasy and my body trembled …
tipping my head back, catching droplets of the splattering water …
my pussy ached and grasped around Your cock as
You pounded into me … I could feel Your hands

grabbing me, pulling me back against You ..
You cock so hard and slamming into me … the pleases begin firing past my
lips, I can barely breath I am so overcome in lust when
I finally hear it through both of our moans and gasping breaths …

now pixie .. oh yes now pixie … panting gasping screaming
breaths are let go as our both are ripped with orgasmic

waves of pleasure ….. ohgodohgodohgaayeeees …
my fingers clawing desperately at the tile as my body tries to regain

control from the shuddering tremors running through us …
as we start to breathe again, You pull me close to You and

we embrace in a kiss .. I look up at You and smile, and You whisper .. welcome home .

How to walk in heels - A Mistress Didi insructional video

i follow Mistress Didi on Twitter and today found thats she
has these great instructional videos on her site, PartyDomme.com

This video is filled with tips for walking in high heels; it's great! Thanks Ms Didi!

HNT - Medicimal use

My HNT this week is of my pipe and my tummy

About 6 years ago or so, I wasnt feeling good one day
then two, then three and so on until it became weeks and weeks.

I was nauseated all the time, I didnt like food anymore,
I was losing weight and the Doctors were clueless (still are!)

A friend said, I have something that will make you feel better
You will be happy, you will eat and you will feel good

I was like BRING IT ON!

Ive been using medicimal marijuana ever since.

I was in the ER a few weeks ago and the Dr said to me
"Dont get caught" then he said "Dont get caught with a lot" lol

13 States currently support Medical Marijuana use
Alaska
California
Colorado
Hawaii
Maine
Michigan
Montana
Nevada
New Mexico
Oregon
Rhode Island
Vermont
Washington


My vaporizer is my smoking utensil of choice,
its the healthiest way to smoke anything!
However my trusty pipe made for a sexier pic lol

HNT - pigtails

This is kinda an impromptu shot with the cell

I have a major hair fetish,
and have been stuck with short hair
my whole life, so a couple years ago
I got this wig. It's a little to big for me
but I am able to get those half-pigtails in!

It looks really cute with my school girl outfit :)

HAPPY HNT!

HNT - a little cheeky

This is from Thunder in the Mountains weekend
I had an absolute amazing time!!

HNT - Tease of Flesh

Seems I've seen several seductive breast shots over the past
few HNT's and thought I'd put a lil peek of mine out here :)

I love to lay bed bed next to a lovely woman, gently stroking her flesh ..
teasing fingers trailing along, feeling the shivers of her excitement

*sighs contently happy w/that thought*


Start your own HNT!!