The "Love Lelo Giveaway"

Our favorite Eden Cafe is having a "Love Lelo Giveaway"

The Mona and the Ina are 2 new fabulous Lelo pleasure toys

(and I quote!)
"Fun colors, curvy shapes, lightweight designs, multiple speeds
and patterns of vibrations, rechargeable, velvety silicone —
the Mona and Ina pretty much have everything anyone could be looking for in a luxury vibrator."


ONE is being given away!

The contest is simple,
the toys are awesome,
GO CHECK IT OUT AND ENTER TODAY!!

HNT ~ Summer Shoes

I admit ... in my lazy days of enjoying the sun, I SO forgot it was Thursday today! I was out shoe shopping yesterday, and decided to make a quicky shot for my favorite day of the week!

Aren't these so cute!? AND it's PayLess BOGO Sale .. I got a 2nd pair, but I'll save those for the next needed quicky *hehe*

HAPPY HNT!

(clicky clicky for other fun summer things I enjoy!)



PS...I'm on the OTHER HNT as well this week *grins*

omg Im sick!

So for the first time in 3 winters, I think I got a cold ... I've thought for the last 3 days that I had allergies. I had spent 2 days out in the 1/2 acre yard raking all the dried up dead stuff that I helped cut down weeks earlier. As I had been raking there was lots and lots of dirt dust and debris that came up and I breathed in.

At the end of the 1st day ( it was like 3 hours each day is all lol) I had an itchy nose and throat. By the end of the 2nd day I had an even more itchy nose and throat, as well as water eyes and runny nose. I showered, went to walmart and got me some Claritin - which did absolutely nothing for me. I got it because it was cheaper than the Zyrtec that I really wanted..

when I woke up the 3rd day I felt like someone had pulled my soul right out of my body. I did almost nothing but lay on the couch. I went to Walgreens 1st thing and got me some of their brand Zyrtec-D - this has the sudafed stuff in it so that it clears the congestion. I didnt have to much of a cough, just the stuffy nose and throat (lots of spit ew!) and feeling completely drained. I went from hot to hotter ... could barely sleep and was just miserable.

Day 4 wasnt much better, but a little ... until I made the mistake of eating. Omelette with salmon, mushrooms, onions, spinach .. it was yum! the 4 bites I had anyways .. then my tummy felt a lil off, so I forced a couple more bites in and stopped. about oh, 6 hours later those few bites came right back up .. I had been feeling more nauseated than usual and sure enough I was suddenly running to kneel before the porcelain god ... ugh .. then my tummy was upset almost all night long.

Today, Day 5, I still feel a little drained but I have managed (with a box of tissues) to clear out the congestion, no more sniffling sneezy nose or soar throat. Ive noticed that my pain meds, which had Tylenol in them, makes me feel a bit better too ...

I feel good enough that I am venturing out to the mall to have lunch with MsMakesmeGiddy :)

Im hoping it really was just allergies not a cold, but whatever it was I do not want it again!!

Losing my 5.3 yr virginity ....

So if you have been following me, or known me for awhile, you know I havent had sex in just over 5 yrs., Feb/Mar 2005 was the last time I had actual intercourse ... now, within the last 2 yrs I did have a brief, and I mean very brief (2 times maybe?), fling with a lovely woman ..who with fingers and tongue only brought me to beautiful orgasms *smiles* but I never really considered that sex sex .. and of course being in the lifestyle I have had a few public scenes, and maybe a private one or two, that included bringing me to orgasm with toys, but again .. no sex sex -

In 1999 I received my 1st collar, from a married couple, and in 2000 moved in with Them - life was grand until about 2003ish when life circumstances just were what they were and there was no more "lifestyle" in the relationship .. that same yr He decided he was jealous of Her and I and would no longer include me in their sex life ... Her "life circumstance" was her becoming a prescription pill addict, and so over weeks, months, years she was loopy and stayed in bed almost 24/7 - making her and mines sex life nill ... then in Oct 2004 she went on a 5 month trip with her mother ... during that time I picked up a cute boytoy from work and until she came home in Feb he was my fuck buddy :)

In a non lucid drug induced state of mind, in March 05 she accused me of still her meds and threw me out of the house and i moved back to Omaha (I had indeed not taken them, she hid them around the house to hide them from us - days later she found then and tried to apologize )

During that 2 years or so ... especially the last yr, I needed to leave .. the situation was bad - but - I couldnt do it. I believed I was her submissive and would take care of Her ... uh huh - best thing she ever did was throw me out.

Anyways .. the point of all that leads to some of my decision to not pick up any new sexual relationships ..

I was raised in a very sexual environment/atmosphere - before age 5 I was "hussling" old men at the bar for quarters to play pinball or get another shirley temple - or just pocket the quarter. I was like that because I was being sexually abused .. it was just my world. I cant say it was bad .. all I remember is what made me feel good and it went on for a number of yrs ... im good with it not all dramatic about it now. Mom always had a new BF or husband or whatever .. I wouldnt trade my life, I am not complaining or saying it was bad .. I am just explaining :)

While i did not choose to have sex until I was 19, I made it to 3rd base with many a boy from way to early an age ... and after I did do it the 1st time, I loved it .. and had lots of it :) but always in unhealthy relationships.

So .. back to 2005. I move back to Omaha instead of AZ where I wanted to go, I am single for the first time in like 10 yrs and feeling like lousy crap that I am just a failure. As I start to pick up my life, I realized, and decided to make a more conscious effort, to just not play the game anymore. I hated losing, I hated being a fuck up .. if you dont play, you cant lose and that was "winning" enough for me. Over time I realized a huge part of "who" I was .. was this sexual being. I used sex/sexual overtones to cover up insecurities .. some people giggle and me, well I become sexual. I also knew it usually got me what I wanted ... unfortunately even at that point I was a co dependent low self esteem girl, shy, scared of the vanilla world ... I really just wanted to shut down and not exist anymore. It wasnt a matter of not liking me, it was a matter of thinking I didnt have it in me to change ...

With the help of 2 dear souls in my life, I sturggled through and worked things out about me and who I am ... in the end I would be a poly submissive ... in the form of service. No collars, No relationships, No getting hurt ... and still getting all my submissive pixie needs met. perfect. Sort of .. I did take a collar of protection and wore a collar of consideration for a few months with another. I got hurt .. I got hurt real bad ... but I need to practice what I preach. Move it, tuck the good times in my heart and the lessons learned into my head and move one. Be happy.

Be happy ... while 2010 has been the hardest year so far, I did make some significant positive changes (the Universe got sick of my whining and kicked my ass lol ) I moved to AZ, and allowed someone to make me Giddy (something else you know about if you have been following!)

So yeah .. MsMakesMeGiddy took the initiative (again previous post!) and brought out a big, beautiful, piece of glass and as she put it with a raspy panting voice while it was being thrust inside of me ..... "princess pixie is being royally fucked"

*smiles* I laughed at myself later because, it IS like losing my virginity all over again, only this time .. Ive forgotten how :| I dont know really how to flirt, Ive never been on a date, I dont know how to initiate ... but omg I want to ...

I also feel like I am setting myself up .. I need to be very careful about not letting myself get attached emotionally to Her .. I cant have her, and I am ok with that, i enjoy getting to play with her, my fear is that its been so long, and the emotions and feelings so missed, that I let them get the better of me ... im hurting myself in that (and then who the hell can i blame lol)

So now if you really read all the way through ... does this count as losing my virginity, or do I need to find a throbbing hard hot cock to fill my aching wet walls ?

HNT ~ Ballet Day

For many years I had a best friend ..
(things happened we are not bestest anylonger)

She has 2 little girls, who are as close to
"my kids" as I will ever get...
(and I miss terribly)

The girls are in ballet and every Sunday,
before Memorial Day, they have a big recital!

Because of my move to Arizona,
This will be the 1st year I've missed, in 10 ...

So in honor of missing the recital, my HNT
is a pic of me in my new dress I wore last year :)

(clicky click click)

and a lil treat to go along with :)
(strawberries and cream anyone?)


Happy HNT!

HNT ~ Happy Anniversary!

SOOOO this week is the 5 yr Anniversary of HNT!!!
WOOHOOO CONGRATS!!!

Happens to be my 1 yr Anniversary in HNT as well!!!

To keep with the Anniversary Theme this week,
we were asked to post our very 1st HNT

This was mine, May 14, 2009



I couldnt re-create it for a today shot,
as 1, I am not at the Fair, and 2, the clothes
are packed from the move still lol

Happy 13th Anniversary ,,,

Yes .. can you believe it, 13 yrs ago, in Las Vegas, my boyfriend of 5 yrs and I were married.

Just before christmas in 1995 we had went ring shopping. I picked a pretty ring :) I found a band I wanted, but picked the diamond separate. Im not really a diamond kinda girl lol so I picked a 1/2 carat quality over a bigger stone less quality. They had to send the 2 rings out to have the stone removed from one band and put into the one I wanted.



Now every year we have been doing a christmas eve party at his parents house, which was a Friday night this year. I thought for certain he was going to do a romantic proposal as part of christmas ..right?! No .. as we were getting ready for the party he said, do you want to wear your ring .. I said, huh? He said .. I picked up your ring today, do you want to wear it to the party? I said yes thinking he was only kidding .. that he would say I had to wait, but no, he was tossing the box at me :| .. Yeah that was my big romantic marriage proposal (NOT!)

it turned out the store made a mistake and gave us both ring bands, even though I only paid for the one I wanted .. that was a bonus lol

2 yrs later, in 1997, April, my future mother in law called me at work ( I was a travel agent!) and said hey will you price out this trip for me and hubby and blah blah blah for May. Now my BFs mom has like 16, 17 some brothers and sisters .. big irish catholic family ... several family members were going.

That night I got home from work and informed my BF that his mom and dad and so and so were going to Vegas in May and he says, well hey, we should go with them and get married .. and I said, OK! and thats what we did :)

When we were outside for the 1st time in Vegas, not long after getting off the plane and getting our bags, I stood there holding my arms out to the sun and I said to everyone .. omg, its the sun, someday I am going to live here! (and that was my goal for almost 11 yrs, then it became Arizona, where I finally made it march 1, 2010!)

We had suites reversed at Palace Station ... the room had floor to ceiling bay windows, its was a stunning view. Our very 1st stop besides checking in, was MGM Grand ( where we subsequently stayed on all future trips ) ... Future hubby put 3.00 into a slot machine and we hit a $1000.00 Jackpot - it made for a most fabulous wedding and trip to Vegas!! We also in all our excitment of 1st trips to Vegas, lost our car in the parking lot. Late, tired, exhausted to a point of tears, we walked a parking garage for over an hour ... we NEVER forgot where the car was parked again LOL

The sad ending to the story is ( or the best part depending on how you look at it!) is that in Feb 2008, less than 1 yr after we were married, i left him ... on my birthday none the less. It's a much longer story but it had to be done. The "good part" is about a yr later, pixie was brought to life :)

SO HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO ME! :)

(all my pictures are packed and in storage but someday when I come across them again I will upload them!)

oh yeah PS .. we are still married even though I left, because I do not want to pay for the divorce, if anyone wants to donate or volunteer their efforts to getting me a divorce .. please do! lol